Fic: Imagine It’s Me
Characters: Blaine Anderson, Cooper Anderson.
WARNINGS: PWP, Incest, Blaine with a B!P for no reason, no explanations whatsoever, masturbation, toys, awkward attempts at sexy talk, and uh, friends who will be scarred for life if they read this?
Spoilers: Just Cooper’s existence.
Words: ~1198
Summary: Cooper ran a hand through Blaine’s damp curls as Blaine stopped his ministrations, “I can’t- It’s-,” he whimpered again, “Not working,” Cooper leaned down to kiss Blaine’s neck, sucking kisses into his skin, trailing up to his ear. He bit the lobe softly and whispered, “Imagine it’s me,”
A/N: This is the first time I’ve written smut since eighth grade, and I feel like it’s probably worse than some of the shit I came up with then. But whatever, I’m a bit rusty. This popped into my head and wouldn’t go away, so I wrote it down.
ERIN, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, DON’T READ THIS. THAT GOES FOR ANYONE ELSE WHO KNOWS THIS BLOG EXISTS WHO REALLY SHOULDN’T. I WILL DISOWN YOU IF YOU READ THIS AND YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND I WILL HAVE TO MOVE TO ALASKA AND PLEASE JUST DON’T DO IT.
Fic: Keep it up, I know you can (6/6)
Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, mentions of Cooper Anderson.
WARNINGS: Depression, Suicidal thoughts?
Spoilers: Just Cooper’s existence.
Words: ~488
Summary: It was routine, it was familiar, and it was them, through and through.
A/N: This came out of nowhere, but it needed to be written. I feel a lot better now. That’s the whole point, isn’t it?
Fic: Keep it up, I know you can (5/6)
Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, mentions of Cooper Anderson.
WARNINGS: Depression, Suicidal thoughts?
Spoilers: Just Cooper’s existence.
Words: ~1218
Summary: But he doesn’t cry, he doesn’t have any more tears left, he just lies there, his breathing fast and shallow and his head and heart pounding. “I don’t want to be here anymore,” he whispers, “Not like this,”
A/N: This came out of nowhere, but it needed to be written. I feel a lot better now. That’s the whole point, isn’t it?
Fic: Keep it up, I know you can (4/6)
Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, mentions of Cooper Anderson.
WARNINGS: Depression, Suicidal thoughts?
Spoilers: Just Cooper’s existence.
Words: ~895
Summary: What would have happened? How bad would it have gotten without Kurt realizing it? What if Blaine tried to kill himself again?
A/N: This came out of nowhere, but it needed to be written. I feel a lot better now. That’s the whole point, isn’t it?
Fic: The Sun Wont Let Me Sleep
Characters: Blaine Anderson and Kurt Hummel.
Spoilers: Not even.
Words: ~646
Summary: “No, my mind’s blank…” Blaine turns to Kurt, is envious at how easily his eyes can slide shut and stay that way. “Sometimes I can’t sleep until I see the sun,”
A/N: This is what happens when I can’t fucking sleep.
Fic: Keep it up, I know you can (3/6)
Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, mentions of Cooper Anderson.
Spoilers: Just Cooper’s existence.
Words: ~2116
Summary: Blaine’s grip tightens on Kurt’s shirt, “You should leave,” he gasps, “You should leave me,”
A/N: This came out of nowhere, but it needed to be written. I feel a lot better now. That’s the whole point, isn’t it?
Fic: Keep it up, I know you can (2/6)
Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, mentions of Cooper Anderson.
Spoilers: Just Cooper’s existence.
Words: ~582
Summary: When the buzzing finally stopped, he burrowed himself into his bed further, wishing he could go back to sleep, wishing he could stop thinking completely. He felt sick with guilt.
A/N: This came out of nowhere, but it needed to be written. I feel a lot better now. That’s the whole point, isn’t it?
Fic: Keep it up, I know you can (1/6)
Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, mentions of Cooper Anderson.
Spoilers: Just Cooper’s existence.
Words: ~694
Summary: He really hoped that’s not what this was. He prayed he’d find Blaine rushing around the house to get ready, realizing he overslept and filled with embarrassment and apologies that Kurt would kiss away.
A/N: This came out of nowhere, but it needed to be written. I feel a lot better now. That’s the whole point, isn’t it?
Questions I have for my girlfriend who isn’t my girlfriend anymore.
- How long have you been thinking about breaking up with me? Because if it’s been a while, how could you have a Saturday like that and still do it? If it was just Sunday that it popped into your head, I’m disappointed, because I thought our relationship meant a little bit more than a snap decision on a bad day. We could have talked things through.
- How do you want this to play out? Should I give you some space, stop talking to you for a while? Are we going to be friends? How close of friends? Because I don’t have friends that I’m not close with, it just doesn’t work that way for me.
- I want you to know, that you are the most amazing woman I’ve ever met. You were perfect for me, and I couldn’t have asked for more out of you or our relationship. I wouldn’t take back anything, I wouldn’t want to give up a day that I had with you. I want you to know, that I’ve been in love with you, for at least the past two months, felt like more. I was holding back, because I didn’t want to scare you away. I was working up the courage to say it out loud, Saturday. I wish I would have. I wish I could have said it, when we were in that blissed out state of mind. Because you deserved to hear it, to hear how utterly, madly, completely in love with you I am.
- Is this a break, or an end? I’m wondering if this is the end of us, completely, or do you think we’ll get another chance, down the line? Be honest, please. It doesn’t matter, either way, because I will be in love with you for months to come, probably even years. That’s just how I work. I’m wondering, if a time comes down the line, when we’re both in the right place, if we could try again. because you made me so happy, and, I would love another shot to make you happy, if I could, again. When you’re ready, if you ever are.
I’ve never had a full start to a relationship, it was like a go ahead to fall head over heels in love with you, instead of the slow building yearning I’ve felt before for people. I fell fast and hard, and it’s just going to be hard to deal with the loss. I keep thinking about not being able to hold your hand, and I tear up. I’ve never had a full start, but I’ve never had a full stop either.
- Is there someone else? I’m sorry if I couldn’t give you what you needed. I’m sorry I didn’t know how to help you, or how to be closer with you. I’m sorry you couldn’t tell me how to.
This is just really confusing for me, in general. Because you said you were so happy, and you said all these things. The plans we made on Saturday, the things said and did, it didn’t feel like we were going to end any time soon. In fact, I thought we would be together for years. Maybe that’s silly of me, but I thought we were perfect. It just doesn’t make any sense to me.
